Wednesday, July 11, 2007

The times now and then....!!!



It was 07/07/07. Some days are really as rare. Not always its necessary to remember some days and moments because there has been something memorable happening at those special times.

Sometimes, times which I really feel the way I am feeling now! Really Alive !! Really happy!!!
Not because something special and extraordinary has happened to me, just a while ago. Its just
feeling or just a state of my heart, so as to say.

When you feel and accept things as they come, enjoy there coming. Enjoy there happening. I think that is the time when we are really alive. Feel like being with LIFE...!

I know there have been innumerable moments in the days that have past, which were moments of joy.
Which were moments of grief. When my heart really felt their happening. My mind was telling me there has been some change in the way I used to be. They made me think, re-think and sometimes act too!
Changed the course of my living, my thoughts. May be those were the moments when I had learnt things, understood them. Those were the times when I was in a state which was driven by my intution. My mind told me and I was doing what was being told.

It was my intellect, my conscience. My present was being driven by experiences in the past. It was like flowing of a river. Touching both the shores without ever making them meet. But the stream though flowing, always had its end going along. Throughout its course! I think those were the times of rivers. Driving the way forward, sometimes washing down the past clear. Sometimes taking it along, as a dearest pal, who will always be close to you. Truely those were the times of rivers...!!!

Its not the life that changed its course. Its you! your own self who changes. Changes into different You. And sometimes just a different state of You. But the crux is it should always be 'You'. That is when life will seem as the dearest pal. Will be there for you as your companion. Through the times of grief and in the moments of elation.

Moving on is what life konws, her only law. Whether to move on with her or you choose to stop is your descrition. Its always your choice. If you stop life won't stop for you. It's only you who will be standstill, who will be at an hiatus. And may be that is what means 'Death', in life's dictionary.

But if you choose to move on, come what may! There will not be a better companion than life itself. She will be there for you every moment. You need to just think of her. And Hey....! you will always find her waiting for you to come along, just around the corner !!

There are days when you will really feel life's presence. The times which neither bring joy nor the gruesome feeling of sorrow. They are just too materialistic for her to make us feel her presence. Life never needs instruments or media to be with us. She is always there. You just need to feel her. Fill youself with her. In the moments when there is nothing special to tell about. Nothing happening so different that it will be a memory forever. Neither it is changing your course of actions. It really has nothing to be noted as such. But it fills you! It really overwhelms your - self !! These are the moments when you are following your heart. Acting the way you never used to, when you thought so much before acting upon something.

These are the moments, really different ones. The moment itself is different and not the things happening in those moments. That is the time when you are with your dearest ever buddy. Your life...!!!
She has always been with you till now and will be there for you in the times to come. Its just you who will decide to feel her. To fill yourself with Life....!!!

These are the moments when you and your actions never bother about the world around. It's just the things coming out of your heart and happening, as easily as you blink your eyes. Unknowingly.....! The moments which never had any bound, never had shores along. These are the moments when you are life and life is You! The moments as carefree as the wave in an ocean. Sometimes just rolling on the sand and sometimes blowing off everything in its way...... Unknowingly...??? Oh.. Yes...!!! without any predudice. Wthout looking at past. These are the moments... moments unbound....!!!

And you know what life tells me in these unbound moments...? It says in my ears, in a soft and loving voice,

"Those were the times of Rivers.....!!
And these are the times of seas......!!

And I say to her aloud.....as loud as I can be;

"Oh.....Yes...!!!
These are the times of seas........!!!!!!
These are the times of seas........!!!!!!

Monday, July 09, 2007

Relations.....???



Relations.....???

I sometimes think that we have made a lot of realations,
but I never think how ?

But its true that realations are just formed and not made always.

May be because of that only, they are so pure and so innocent.

Some people in my life have been so caring and relations so pampering
and easy that I would have never imagined.

Some people came in my life very silently....I dont even remember
the day when we met... but now life or even a day without talks
becomes so barron.....so lonely....!!!

We may not have been together for a long time but I know it has been
never better than this.... so caring so pure and so true...
I know it will always reamain so.

Some people came in my life at so later stages of life but I feel that
life without them will not be life at all.

I never tried to think what magic is there in that realation...
But it always dominated..... and will till eternity.

And I think thats what life is .... all about relations.....isn't it???
All about caring and giving....never expecting anything, though needed....
Because I am always assured by the realation that it will never do bad to me.....

Sometimes I do the mistake of imagining my life without all
those near and dear ones...... though very few poeple are so
close but they matter LIFE... yes!!! life ... for me.

I can't ever think of my life which will be so solitary without all
those people around.

But sometimes the negative side takes over my mind.....
And makes me think of the distances ..... think of parting....
and the solitude it will follow......

Its really a gruesome feeling ... that I will never be able to handle
When I cant even think of it....how will I be albe to face it.?

Rather God should never take me in that situation.....I bow my Lord...!!!

I am ready to do anything to maintain them for ever and ever....
till the end of this universe...... till eternity...till end of me...!!!

Because these realtions mean life for me.........!!!

Once it so happened.... May be that was really a hard day for me.

The day of parting....!!!

The ghastly time never ended....the moment was so long...
so caring .... so dear to me....

You know..! when somebody cries when you are parting from them
It just takes away a part of your heart.....
I felt that somebody ... somebody in that bad time is taking
everything out of my life... all the happiness.... all the caring

The tears rolling down the chicks were so pure .....that it relfected
light.....

The world around which was so beautiful till that time
turned so hostile and solitary in one moment....

And I am forced to think why should such moments come in somebody's life????
Why??/

But I never found the answer......
But I think the joy of being together is everything that you will
ever need to be happy ... for ever and ever.

The life is that one moment....just one moment....
The moment when somebody leans on ur shoulders.......taking it
as the best support she will ever find in this universe.

And I am ready to sacrifice even my whole life for this one
moment... because there is nothing beyond that one moment.....!!!

There is nothing more beautiful than that touch.
Nothing so pure as that tear....
Nothing so warm than that pure hug...
Nothing so deep than the feeling which just penetrates your heart.
Nothing so piercing than that look which is saying why this moment
has come ... why there sould be something like parting....??/


Why there should be something like solitude???

Why there should be such a great loss .....???
so unbearable...!!!
So hurting.....!!!

So close but so far away...!!!

Why.... My dear!!!......Why???